New slideshow added. This slideshow is about my life in UCSI with my friends ( from Year 1 sem 1 until last semester). We are now in Year 2 Sem 3 already! Thanks for all the memories we shared for the past 2 years. It's nice to know u guys. Let's enjoy the rest of our Uni life!
Feel bad to make an offence to a girl today. Maybe she wasn't know the way she talked to me made an offence to me too. There were many misunderstanding between us since the day we get to know each other. I had a bad thought of her before I know her. But after I get to know her, she is a person I can share my mind with. She always give me consultation whenever I met any unhappy things.
Recently, we had many conflicts with each other. The conflict always started from my sensitive ear. I'm sort of person who cannot accept harsh words or criticise. More than that, she always say wrong thing when she didnt know the whole story about which make me more hurt. Because my mind was that, she is the person I trust the most in the Uni, I treat her as my best friend in the Uni as well. But, I wonder, why she never stand at my side and try to understand my feeling? Not even once. I was the one always being blamed.
Guys have to be gentleman in the sense that alway give priority to girl. But, to me, I think it depends on the circumstances. And of course, as me, as a person who insist with my stand and hardly to accept what people say. Here's the problem came about. I just wish to spend my rest of less than 1 year time in Uni happily. Mood always get affected by friendship stuff. Gosh..... It's better for me to sleep then. Tomorrow will be a nice day.
What are feelings? Ever felt like asking that question? Medically and scientifically, it is controlled by a part of the brain that is the most underdeveloped, and maybe that accounts for why we have the least control over it. Yeah, but what are feelings?
Well, feelings are like dreams. Who has ever heard of life without dreams? Dreams keep you sane, dreams tell you things that are about to happen (I get those often, the so-called deja vu), dreams, sometimes, for people gifted with prophecy by God, tell them what God wants them tell others. And then there is the other type of dreams, the dreams that drive you, the ambition that directs your acions and which you work hard for.
Do you know the true meaning behind your dreams? Sure, sleep researchers or even old wives tales say that dreams tell you if you're stressed, you're tired or you're scared, but I don't think dreams do just that, right? Dreams are so vivid, so detailed, so... ALIVE. And what about dreams of ambition? Easily explained? Well, you dream to become somebody, but why? because you want to have that wealth or respect? Why again? Because people around you do the same? Or is it because you want to leap-frog over them in that aspect? Alright, easier question: would you be satisfied after you get that? And will you really be content that you became what you become? Some would say yes, some would say no, and others... won't know.
And that is what feelings are, or really, in essence. Feelings are so unreliable in life, they cloud up the things you see, and even for the things you do see, they are distorted. But that again, feelings also keep you the way you are. True, feelings alone make a mess out of things, but solid logic and reasoning without feelings in the form of values and moral ideas (they ARE intwined and part of each other, if you bother to acknowledge it) make a man a monster capable of anything. Feelings give a context of their own to a puzzle, to a situation, to perception, and in the end, that, coupled with other things, gives you what you need to act, to feel, and finally, to care.
But then, why do feelings cause you to be hurt? Maybe it's because feelings also cause you to be happy, to feel like you belong, to feel like you have meaning in this world, to make you feel stronger than you have never been before, to make the world seem such a bright and lovely place. Maybe that is why, like our dreams, we hold on dearly to our feelings, because in the end, we know that these feelings are part of us, and it has made us into what we have become. but beware of its trap, lest it cripple you and disable you forever. But if you know in your heart that what you feel is real, and there is no way you can let it go willingly, maybe it is best to hold it close, always hoping, always searching and forever watching that horizon for what you believe in.
Man, I didn't know I could be that emo. LOLZ. Well, lessons are learnt, and maybe that will be what leads you in the future. That and feelings, I suppose.
Man, works starting to get to me... I nearly spelled destiny as "density" xD Proof that Physics rocks lolz xD
Destiny
People live their lives believing the media,
And it's hard not to, cause that's about all we see
About fairy tales and... Well, Wikipedia...
But what's that all mean to me?
We learn about "Romance d'amour"
And Cinderella, and Sleeping Beauty too
And knights in shining armour
And "Happily Ever Afters" - or HEAs, that's true xD
Some think that those, however
Distort now what we see...
But hey, I loved those movies
And the innocence there'd be =)
Some find their other half
Early in their life
Some search so hard and never notice them
From right beside their eyes
Some look and never find that half
And evermore they sigh
Some never bother finding them
And then they walk on by
Some don't want nor even care
And when it hits, they secede
Some hide well, and never share
But when approached, they accede
Some sigh when things do not work out
And tears in darkness be
But wipe those tears my friend, and shout,
In heaven smile with me =)
As for me, i'm glad to be just me
And yeah, that's who i'll be
The best darn looking guy there is
The wisest, arguably =P
Okay, so maybe that's not true
But you'll get me if you know me
Hey Destiny! Oh Destiny!
Can you just,
Please...
Let my friends be?
-SkYnG-
Destiny - dedicated to my friends here who got paired up, to those who aren't, to those looking to be, to those not looking to be, to those mourning, to those smiling, to those who need a rest, to those who have too much rest, to those who should be WORKING INSTEAD OF READING THIS!!!
Smile with me, and smile for me, my friends =D You know I can't stand seeing you frowning =)
And those who aren't, this quote's for you...
"If you come into this world knowing that you are loved, and you leave this world knowing that, then everything in between can be dealt with. "
— Michael Jackson
-I want to stroll in the park at night, to sort out my troubled mind
- I realize even our best friends could not always be there for us
- I must go to Giant to get vegetables and fruits this week
- I need a car here. I have my own chores to do. I feel helpless when I could not do what I want to do. Truthfully, I feel a huge burden when relying too much on people
- I want to explore the musical and artistic side of me. To indulge in musical instruments and dancing are some things I want to try
- I think the best things in life must be shared with the special ones and not to be enjoyed alone
- I think I'm getting old, judging by the genres of music I'm listening to
- I want have the life I want but currently I'm not
- I am optimistic a person can change from good to bad and vice versa
- I am unsure what to do now
- I do envy people over things that I do/could not acquire
- I want my room to be air-conditioned
- I think doing good deeds gives me great satisfaction
- I sometimes put on a bright front when it's all dark inside me
- I hope not get disappointed after being optimistic for a long time
- I am missing something
- I have many things to be bought but I don't have enough money to do so
- I must not let people down
- I have a lot to tell and you ought to know that
- I am thinking on what to cook for lunch tomorrow
- I need to talk to someone
- I must exercise tomorrow evening
- I think that real nice people are hard to find nowadays
- I am not sleepy now
- I wonder if anyone really understands me
- I hope to have that dream again
- I am grateful to have friends that I have now
- I want time to pass by quickly but at the same time slowly
What's on yours?
13 years... I have been listening to Japanese pop for 13 years already. I was only Primary 5 when I was first to J-pop. The first song I get addicted was White Love-by SPEED.
SPEED was the most popular Girl-band in Japan in the 90's. I was influenced by my elder sister, because she kept on playing the videos of SPEED. The first original CD I bought was SPEED's 2nd album "RISE", it is considered expensive especially to a primary school student like me who had only RM2 of pocket money per school day. After that, I spent most of my pocket money to buy all of their CD. Just after 3 years, SPEED was disbanded. I even cried for their disband. Soon, they step into Solo career, and I still supporting each of them. Below is the CDs of SPEED I have and other singers like Ayumi, Koda Kumi, Boa, etc.
"You're my friend because you're always there,
If there's sadness around or in the air,
At night, in the morning or anytime of day,
You're there to cheer me up and chase the sadness away.
I just want to thank you for all you've done,
You've helped me through a lot, you're really number one.
Thanks for all the good times that we share,
It shows that you're one who really does care.
Thanks for being there when time got rough,
You make it easier when times get too tough,
Thanks for being there each and every day,
Thanks for being you in that very special way."
and lastly, thanks for being my friends... ^^
Just changed a new layout. Assasin Creeds is one of my favourite games. The guy in the header is the main character. I found this layout is best suit with my blog's name "I am who I am", The main character, Altair is an assasin. His mission is to stop the crusade. " I am who I am" implies him, he know who he is and nothing gonna change his mission or target of life. Just like me, I have set a target of my life, any obstracle will not affect me in moving towards my target. People might find hard to understand me sometimes, and yet, I also do not understand myself sometimes, I only know " I am who I am".
Hereby, I would like to share the most viewed video of this game. Which already over 2 millions of people viewed.
Time flies, Weekend is coming!!! I feel this semester is really passing fast. The 1st day of new semester just like yesterday. We are goin to 4th week of the semester soon. Well, we have only 14 weeks of study and then will sit for the final exam. It means the final exam just 10 weeks away from now. Imagine in between this period of time, we will have quizes, midterm exams, assignments, lab reports, tutorial questions, case studies, etc.... However, this semester is more free as compared to the previous semester. It doesnt mean we can relax. As the University level goes up, the difficulty of the exam goes upper too.
Let's plan what I'm going to do during the upcoming weekend. play table tennis again? yes, definitely! Read the journals about the human nutrition. Of course is study!!! =.=``` I hate to say so, but, have to face the reality. As the quizes coming, the time will run even faster. "Come on, it's weekend! Think of something fun ok?" Erm... what else I can do and ought to do? I still dont know. But definitely spend my time in managing and posting to this blog, designing this blog so that will make this more attractive. It seems I got no photos and videos to upload. =.=``` Think and think...... Erm.. Let's take a short nap. xD
I hate to see this 0800 appears in my schedule! 0800 = 8 a.m = 8 o'clock class in the morning = have to wake up early = brain will not functioning well during the lecture. More than that, I will have 8 - 11 a.m class later. What to do? Thanks to UCSI once again with "so many" classrooms. We are the people who sacrified and scheduled to have class in such a early morning. I alway cannot wake up, and I alway set 20x alarms , I still couldnt wake up sometimes! Maybe due to the table tennis practice last night? or insomia? or was busy to write blog until late night ? I just wish I could continue to sleep...sleep.....sleep.......... Gosh.... Wake up please!!! 0800 is coming! =.=``` Goodbye my bed and welcome to the 0800 class.......
Insomnia night... I scroll and scroll the mouse, look at the photos which I taken with my students. Ya, my students. Time flies, 3 years over already. I was a primary school teacher in 2007 and 2008. I could still remember the situation when I first to the school, the scene of numbers of students looking at me, the voices of " Good Morning, Teacher Ng!", the joys I shared with my students and of course the anger I got from the students.
Just back from ping pong practice, I was so surprised to see there were so many new comers who joined the ping pong club. We need to share the table ( 4 persons per table). It was my first time to see 4 tables with 16 people and some were even waitting for their turn. I was like " again???? ". I saw many of them left due to lack of patience. And finally it was my turn after half an hour of waitting. I think most of my time spent in the Uni was "WAIT". Print notes have to wait, enter classroom have to wait, and now play table tennis also have to wait. =.=``` To me, good things are worth to wait, especially comes to my hobby. Ya, it might sound weird for a big guy like me likes to play table tennis. Why? According to my friend, Miss Ah Kiam, " It's funny to see a guy chasing after a small table tennis ball." =.=``` I "sweat" for this funny description. Somehow, my target is to win a guy who is extremely proud and likes to show off his table tennis skill. And also another girl, but I won her by last week. xD her expression was so funny and that guy couldnt believe that. Well, I admitted that that was my luck, but, my skill, perhaps.xD Anyway, I will keep practise table tennis, and I believe I could succeed in one day.
Tonight, after I back from practice, " Blog!!!" appears in my mind. When will the 15 posts completed? I heard one of my friends already finished 10 posts in one day. Really wonder what had he written. 2 posts per day for me it's enough, I think. It's weird for me to write blog everyday. What to do? It's part of assignment. I hope that lecturer will give us an assignment, like " create a facebook and be active in any one of the playfish games i.e hotel city, perhaps. xD But, it sounds like my fat hope. forget it then. Turn off the light and sleep tight, tomorrow will be another nice day. 8 a.m morning class!!! Gosh........
I had enough of it!!! Why Uni has only 2 printers for thousands of students? Today, as usual, the long "Q" again in front of 2 printers. While I was queuing, I used the time to finish my Marketing tutorial questions. It was my turn after 2 hours of queuing. I printed the notes as fast as I can since there were many people still behind me. And I quickly give way to another girl. I noticed that I missed up one chapter to print and I asked that girl to let me check with pendrive whether that chapter exists or not. After the girl had printed all her notes, she gave the seat to me. Another girl behind stare n speak loudly to me " hey, r u jumping queue?" ( What the hell, I already asked another girl! ) " I already told that girl because I want to check whether I missed up one chapter to print", I replied. " You should ask us, because we are waitting!", she replied with anger. " Ok, never mind, I dont want to quarrel with u, just give me few seconds ok?", I replied again. She did not respond to my reply, and I feel pissed off by that girl. Her boyfriend is actually someone I know, that's why I did not want to argue with that girl. I think her boyfriend was feel embarassing to his girlfriend's action and attitude. Really pissed off by that rude girl! The harsh words still lingering in my mind even till now. I wont forget that girl! Anyway, have to thank to my Uni provides so "many" printers!
Besides, there are also lack of spaces in the classroom, everyone has to go to reserve the seat half an hour before the lecture starts. More than that, we have to wait for other students to come out from the classroom and we need to have "kung fu" in squeezing body to run into the classroom. The scene was like in circus. I saw some girls could even throw their books and bags to reserve the seats which 1 meter away from them. =.=!!! Have to bear with the noises and the small classroom during lecture. I dont really know where our school fees gone to. The school fees increase from semester to semester. RM10k per semester for each student, yet, the Uni could not afford to buy more printers? Could not build more classroom? What I have learned from this Uni is to become a "kiasu" person whereby have to wake up early morning to wait at outside of the library to wait for it opens, and be the good runner in running to the 3rd floor to print the notes. If you are not a good runner, sorry to say that, you have to be patient in waitting for at least hour of time. Good in squeezing yourself to get the seat.....etc. What a day!!!
Customizing my blog now. Just added the my favourite song playlist which are all about Koda Kumi's songs. One of my favourite singer in Japan. Yes, I've been addicted in listening to Japanese songs for more than 13 years already! Even inside my computer's hardisk, storage for Japanese songs is about 95% , I would say. New template is up too! But I couldnt get rid of that " undefined" word! What the....=.= Been searching for this nice template for hours, found this one which suits me the most. Ya, I wish I can be the DJ and make the remix of all my favourite songs. Dont be surprised that my name" SkYnG" appears on the shirt of that DJ. Ya, that's me! noticed that? xD...
There are actually many features in customizing this blog which I still need some times to figure out. Hopefully I will make it more attractive and get more marks for this assignment. Not just for assignment purpose, I will make it as my personal web blog, perhaps.
Oh my Godness!!! It's late night now! I gotta sleep now! Continue to customize this web blog again tomorrow. Off the light and sleep tight. xD
New blog is up!!! I'm offically a blogger now. xD
What is blog? To me, it is a place for me to write whatever happends in my daily life; a place for me to voice out my feeling too. Well, I'm not new to blog, but, it's great for me to have chance to start blogging again after 2year. Oh my God! What to write huh? When I was told by the lecturer that everyone of us has to post at least 15 posts within 10 days. And it's going to be part of our IT assignment and contribute to 5 %. It's 5%, it's really means a lots to me! 5% equivalent to one Gred! Perhaps, I will continue to blog after this 10 days time. Not only for assignment purposes, also,for me to write anything that happend in UCSI. I think it's the first time for me to write a blog about my UCSI life. That's why I assigned the blog name as " Rojak@ UCSI".
For the following days before the assignment due date, which is on the 5th week of May-Aug Semester, I will keep updating my blog and share anything about my life in UCSI. Here we go~ A new blog is starting.......
そして、この日記にはエリが素直に感じた事、見た事、聞いた事、思った事を書いてみなさんに 伝えられたらいいなぁ～と思ってます。喜怒哀楽！わがままなエリですが、暇な時にでも覗いて見て下さい！でわでわ。skyng日記！始まり始まり～～～！！！
